Pax Druidica

It’s done. finally. All 31 page’s finally finished and I’m feeling lightheaded about it. Tbh, I never thought I would finish it - it was the most difficult project i’ve ever done, and I feel changed by the experience.

I learned a lot while making it. I learned that I can’t force myself to do things, even if I want to. I learned to pace myself, and get out of my comfort zone. I learned to be more forgiving to myself. To take care of myself better.

There was a lot of self loathing attached to it for the longest time, I was deeply afraid it would end up in my pile of never finished works, and left to rot. I based a lot of my self esteem and self worth on whether it would get finished or not, and that was the worst possible mistake I could have made.

I don’t know why I thought it would be easy, that I could just throw together what is basically a whole ass book in a few weeks. The art block was the worst part and it left me feeling defective - like I had to prove to myself I could do it or else I’d never do anything ever again.

And now here it is, imperfect, but the most passionate piece of work i’ve created. And I’m proud of myself for finishing it.